Well, day 5 of the.. "overwhelmed to the point of depression" week. I'm sleeping in shifts now which probably isn't the best way to do so, and leaves ted alone for most of the time. Which is good & bad. Good in that he can relax, bad in that he gets lonely & then gets depressed.
Tried creating a new ui for healing that really has me floored. I can see the value in it but not sure if I have the brain power to use it effectively. The bad part is there is no way to test if I can w/o just doing it. That makes it bad for everyone else. I've got to really try to think this thru WITHOUT driving myself insane.
Depression is such an annoying thing.
One minute your fine, the next your depressed with often times no real reason why. And sometimes its the stupidest of things that is so depressing.
This is the 3rd day this week that I've felt this way. Thankfully its not overwhelming depression. It simply feels like nothing is going to get done & even if it were it wouldn't be good enough. I'm not good enough.
My oxygen levels have been 88 when waking the last two days so that might be a contributing factor.
GOD I HATE GETTING OLD!
Just now I'm sitting here going thru the things I need to do and suddenly a way of depression hits me like a truck. "Damn your old and falling apart dude!"
Getting old is NOT for the weak.
Another night where I'm feeling weird.
Why am I lonely right now. Is it because everyone has been asleep for hours and I'm not? Is it because the members of wow I normally run with were gone today?
Is it cause its 5am and I'm alone?
Is it lonlieness that makes you feel empty inside?
Damn I wish I was still married to a wife that was trustworthy.
Why do I always feel half brain dead when I stay up @ night. Sitting here somewhere between depression & boredom.
Just got done healing a run and am shaking like a leaf! Never had that experience before.
Day #2 of being in a brain fog. Not as bad as yesterday when I forgot to take Tuesday's meds but still not thinking clearly.
Medically things sure are a mess right now. Got appointments mon, tue, wed next week to START sorting things out.
I wonder why I hate leaving the house now?
Something I should definetly bring up at my next counseling session.
So glad inaguration went off smoothly. Let just pray it continues to go as well.
selah
I fear for our future president as there has been so much hate built up over the last 6 years that its exploding. I'm worried he'll be the ultimate target of that hate. I pray i'm wrong and that instead this country will finally start pulling itself back together again.
please GOD BLESS THE USA.. we need it & you more then ever now.
selah
On a positive note, I went to bed @ 2200 and slept on/off ( like always ) till 0445.
MAYBE my sleep schedule is starting to approach a normal humans.
a new pr was merged today ( https://github.com/joomla/joomla-cms/pull/31436 ) allowing for using svg's as favicons, which is kinda cool.
BUT there is zero documentation on how to use it. Why does Joomla continually do this to itself?
It's the little things like this that prevent it from being the #1 cms on the planet.