Another night where I'm feeling weird.

Why am I lonely right now.  Is it because everyone has been asleep for hours and I'm not?  Is it because the members of wow I normally run with were gone today?
Is it cause its 5am and I'm alone?
Is it lonlieness that makes you feel empty inside?
Damn I wish I was still married to a wife that was trustworthy.

Why do I always feel half brain dead when I stay up @ night.  Sitting here somewhere between depression & boredom.

Just got done healing a run and am shaking like a leaf!  Never had that experience before.

Day #2 of being in a brain fog.  Not as bad as yesterday when I forgot to take Tuesday's meds but still not thinking clearly.
Medically things sure are a mess right now.  Got appointments mon, tue, wed next week to START sorting things out.
I wonder why I hate leaving the house now?
Something I should definetly bring up at my next counseling session.

So glad inaguration went off smoothly.  Let just pray it continues to go as well.
selah

I sit here in one of my weird moods.  Don't feel like playing games, a bit hard to think, too awake to sleep yet too tired to be cognizant of much.
It's with great trepidation & prayer that we start 2021.  2020 was a disaster.  2021 is starting out with the worst revolt we've seen in over 150yrs.  The behavior of those who encouraged, supported and engaged in the attack on our capitol are shameful & imo 100% unworthy of citizens of our country.  I pray this is a one off sad event in 2021 and not the beginning of even more 2020 garbage.

I fear for our future president as there has been so much hate built up over the last 6 years that its exploding.  I'm worried he'll be the ultimate target of that hate.  I pray i'm wrong and that instead this country will finally start pulling itself back together again.

please GOD BLESS THE USA.. we need it & you more then ever now.

selah