Tue12Sep2023
I'm happy to say we are now streaming daily on kick.com 
. Come check us out at http://kick.com/BearLeeAble we stream daily.
I stream world of warcraft & farlight 84 games and love to chat with my viewers.
Kick is a streaming platform much like twitch is. Unlike twitch they share their ad revenue better with their streamers. While its a young service its growing quickly and is very popular with streamers.
Mon29May2023
I'm happy with the new template though I leave a lot to be desired when it come to design, which is why AmGraphix always works with the customers and does the design. I'm happy doing the tweaking she wants done to customize the template beyond "normal settings". Sometimes it's challenging but very rewarding when a customer gives a shining testimonial like so many have done.
I've been working with Ali for 10yrs now and we have a great relationship. We use Abivia for all of our hosting as it's rock solid and the customer service is stellar.
Sat27May2023
It's a quiet night tonight. Everyone's asleep and I'm playing wow.
get bored easily playing it these days as there is very little to do.
Poor Ted is still without his pc so we are sharing mine as much as possible.
Bought a Craftsman LT2000 last week and it broke down the 1st time we used it. Damn my luck with mowers is bad.
Luckily its only a $30 part but it turns out the carb is bad also and thats another $30 *sigh*
Sat13May2023
Another quiet night. Sitting here alone, as always, without much to do. Leaves my mind too many things to ponder on.
Not much to do in wow, coding done for the month. No sites to work on other then this one. Just kinda a blah evening.
The month is going very very slow and once again our finances are upside down. Gosh how I wish I had the $ to fix our house up so its a home not a wreck.
New meds does help me sleep 4hrs + at a time now so thats a positive change. Guess thats all to share for now.
Thu27Apr2023
Another lonely night. Seem to be having those alot lately.
Went to bed around midnight but only slept for an hour before I was too awake to fall back to sleep.
After a couple of hours of gaming I'm now lonely. Least I think that's what this is.
I've noticed lately A LOT of mouth twitching. I THINK its most prominent when there's nothing in my mouth and I'm concentrating.
You can see it here...
Mon10Apr2023
Another one of those weird nights...
Slept on/off most of the day and now i'm sitting here in a zombie state. Not awake enough to do anything constructive and of course everyone else in my social circle is sound asleep so nobody to talk to.
I just stare at the screen.
No desire to do anything.
I just stare at the screen.
No desire to do anything.
My mind is going 40,000 kph so can't really focus on anything. Not even gaming is appealing.
Sat08Apr2023
It's weird how sometimes I'll be sitting here and a tear or two will fall for no apparent reason. I don't feel depressed as I understand it, nor joyful. Just "meh".
Nothing "feels" wrong. I'm just experiencing my night, doing whatever it is I'm doing. In this case I'm sitting here playing WOW listening to various genre's of music. Some upbeat some not. Just a random YT stream mix.
Nothing "feels" wrong. I'm just experiencing my night, doing whatever it is I'm doing. In this case I'm sitting here playing WOW listening to various genre's of music. Some upbeat some not. Just a random YT stream mix.
The human body is so strange.
Nobody will probably see thsi till after I'm gone but I'm not sure that I put it here for others to see but instead just to document my feelings/thoughts so that if someday someone wants to know more about "Bear" they will know.
selah
Mon03Apr2023
Tonights one of those melancholy nights where I can't sleep and can't focus much. Just kinda sitting here being present.
I'm not moody, depressed, restless or any other *ess just in that weird place where you just "exist".
I'm not moody, depressed, restless or any other *ess just in that weird place where you just "exist".
I know "existing" isn't a healthy place and my pledge for the year was supposed to be to get out more and stop just "existing" but I haven't managed to achieve that yet.
Fri24Feb2023
Listing to Scott Wesley Brown this morning. My son shared one of his songs and it was quite nice. Maybe you'll find it refreshing too.
Wed16Nov2022
Well, Dragonflight pre-patch #2 for Wow has released today. Very long maintenance window but it seems to be a fun class.
You start out at level 58 and can currently only go to 60 which takes just a couple of lazy hours. Could probably go much much faster if you focused....
...SQUIRREL....
In other news I've been sick for about 3 weeks now. Tired alot. Tonight is the first time I've been able to stay awake more then 1hr. Doc wants me to go get a chest x-ray *sigh*.
In other news I've been sick for about 3 weeks now. Tired alot. Tonight is the first time I've been able to stay awake more then 1hr. Doc wants me to go get a chest x-ray *sigh*.
Had a good chat with my brother so that was nice.
Got our xmas gifts for others planned out. Now just have to make it happen.
Got our xmas gifts for others planned out. Now just have to make it happen.
Mon26Sep2022
Sometimes I sit here at night when its mostly quiet in the house and think about my mortality.
I'm heavily invested in http://bearsampp.com right now and am pretty much the only one the knows the ins/outs of how it all works. I'm training jacob but he doesn't have the php knowledge that i have and mine is very little. He's great at testing and all the admin stuff so we make a good team but it worries me, alot, what will happen to the project when i'm gone.